Dear ________,
Attachment is a scary, scary thing. Please try to understand me. I’ve been very careful about trusting people and getting attached. Attachment’s not always a bad thing though. Remember how it was in the beginning? I don’t regret it, because those experiences taught me what I don’t want and what I’d do differently.
But you. With you, I was careful. More than I’d ever been. I was cautious. Not was, am. I am cautious. Or what I believe I’m trying my best to be.
And the only reason attachment can be scary, is when you’re unsure of how strong the bond is between you and a person. I guess this is where trust comes in. I’m scared of dealing with what happens after that bond is severed. I don’t want to go through that again.
But what can I do? Nothing is in my control. Accepting Guru’s Hukam is easier said than done sometimes. I pray for understanding and the power to accept His Will.
Chardi Kala,
Your friend.
“The Letters I Never Sent” is a column about things the author has actually wanted to say to certain people but in letter form. She has never actually ‘sent’ them.
