I was very fortunate when I made the decision that a good portion of my family members were accepting and supportive. I certainly surprised them, as the transition was fairly sudden; one day I tied a dastaar, and I haven’t taken it off since. And yet, beyond the initial surprise, I have only received love and encouragement from my parents and brother, as well as many extended family members. Once I started to open up to others about the decision, and I suppose as others became more comfortable providing destructive criticism, I saw a different side of the story. I heard from aunties in the community, who claimed they only wanted what was best for me, that no Sikh boy would want to marry me now that I tied a dastaar. I heard from my peers that it made me look like a man and a Sikh identity isn’t meant for females anyway. When I started to face discrimination based on my appearance, I had to think about who I could go to for support, because I knew many people I confided in would just tell me to “take it off.”
I would be lying if I said I didn’t take these comments to heart, if I said these concerns didn’t get internalized and then replayed as my own worries, or that I didn’t care about how others viewed me. I certainly saw a shift in the way that many Sikhs treated me after I took amrit, but the shift was even starker once these changes in my lifestyle were more visible. There were many times when I found I couldn’t even spend time with other Sikhs because they expected me to judge them for certain decisions, even though I was doing nothing of the sort. Suddenly, by taking on a dastaar, my personality and future were determined for me, sometimes by complete strangers.
The more comments I have received, the more I have realized, yes, it is problematic that there is much less support for females wearing dastaars within our community, but I’m also not wearing a dastaar for anyone else. My identity is for me and my Guru, no one else. I decided to wear a dastaar because I felt that it was a decision that would bring me closer to Vahegurroo and allow me to focus on building the connection and relationship that is most important to me. As Bhai Gurdas Ji said, (Vaar 39, Pauri 5)
jothee joth samaae kai pooran param joth chith chaethai||
The Gurmukh, having established his identity with the supreme light, always cherishes that flame in his heart.
I hope that the perspective towards females with dastaars starts to change, but until then, I will focus on the flame within me and allow that to be my guiding light.
Bravo, ms Harleen , thanks for sharing your experience . This will definitely encourage others in their determination .
You go Girl…nothing to worry about these materialistic ignorant coward people around you.
You look BEAUTIFUL in Dastaar.
You are a Brave girl and you have all Guru ji’s Blessings.
Screw all those Aunties who opposed to your Dastaar.
Any one who opposed you is worthy of being called a ‘Churra/Churri & Suaan” as per Gurbani.
A Battle For Identity
By having a dastaar, you are a complete Khalsa woman, daughter of our Siri Guru Gobind Singh Ji. Ignore the distractors, Panji as they are not enlightened souls but still groping in the dark.